1. The relationship was taken for granted, but really there are confessions that have not been spoken for. Forget about that for now and focus on the times that reflected more innocence. Although you do not quite know the full story, I may have to give in. 2. My devotion to you is beyond mere words. You connect with me in a way no else could. I will be around for you if you give me the chance. There are still revelations not accounted for but I can’t purge these repressions yet. 3. If I tell you the truth, I know you will abandon me. Was it for destiny to decide if we were aligned or is the disease on my end? The waiting must continue but the words are finally beginning to choke my lungs. 4. These subtle obstacles distract me from my real quest. It’s now or never because if the truth remains hidden, our foundation was based on lies and half-truths. 5. I still think of you as my sole savior, so I please forgive me for my last undoing. I discarded a gem that was so precious. The decision for what can be an eternal bond is yours. 6. This now is the moment I’ve waited too long for as I am stumbled by your presence. You now know what has decayed my mind but you leave me as my worst fears come to light. Please, I cannot let this be the end. 7. Reality now presides over the assumptions. Everything I so naively hoped for has taken an abrupt turn. My devotion and trust in you was something that has dissolved. 8. I need other substitutions to blanket the harsh reality. This faked existence is almost as cringing as the one that surfaced. The descent to a new deeper hole is emerging. 9. Hollow feelings of ecstasy crush my inner being. This delusion only gives me hope for something that will never really come to bear. I have to accept the responsibility for the unfolding of my actions. Drastic measures need to be taken to mend the torn threads. – BANG – 10. One painful journey ends and one with uncertainty begins. 11. This new avenue appears to be an irreversible chapter of loss. I have tokens of remembrance of every fragment and slice of time. I wish this was not the truth but the first hints of comfort numb what I have turned into. 12. I yearn to remember only the times that were worthy. There was so much I promised and yet I managed to let everyone I loved down in devastating ways. It is the thoughts of what could have been that now seem to eternally haunt me. 13. I hope my loss balanced out your pain. There never was a thing called fate and so maybe there was justification for the one life I embodied. 14. There are others here suffering similar misfortunes to provide solace. I will now forever question the decision I made because I was too frightened to take responsibility for what I suffered. I only want to turn back the fragment of time when I made such a hostile call at a moment where my thoughts were not cohesive. These words will eternally haunt me as I'd do anything to feel alive again. I want to taste the fresh air now. Please forgive me wherever you are.